Why can’t I love you?
I tried so hard.
There is just something that is making it hard.
Leaving crumbs in hopes that your heart will follow.
Then they disappear and now they are gone like tomorrow.
I just cannot love you.
No matter how hard I tried.
Something is missing from deep inside.
I have given up all hope that love can exist.
I have one last chance and I think I might make that wish.
I never wish upon a star.
Tonight, I think I might.
Then that will be my last wish.
I do not want this anymore.
My tears are not enough.
There are no words I can say to make this right.
The thoughts that run around my head have finally made a home.
A place where the burden of life will forever live.
Why do I have to be here?
Why can I not go to place here all hope is gone.
Where life has no end or beginning.
This is not dream that my family dreamt.
This is the nightmare what upon what they wish.
I can only pray for peace, but I wish for disaster.
I just do not want to be anymore.
Yet they say this is my dream.
I just do not like me.
Most importantly I just do not love me.
Why did you leave me?
Was I not enough for you?
Did my heart not beat harder for you?
Were my wants too much for you to bare?
Was it the way that I never called your name?
I sit alone as the night fades and pray that the daybreak never come.
Asking myself where did I go?
As if you never came into my world.
Trying hard not to cry so that it does not show that I care.
Hiding from people that always calls to check in, but in disbelief when they answer my call.
I am trying to find the words to show how much I miss you.
I just do not want to say them.
Then it will mean that it is all true.
The last time we spoke was the last time I said I love you.
Now I wish I never said goodbye.
I wish that you could see me cry, so you can wipe the tears from my eyes.
There is so much I could as for, but that is all I wish.
I know that it is too much to ask so that is why I wish.
The day you left I cried .
The day you came back I wish you had died.
You were my reasoning,
Then you became my being.
It seems as if we were one,
Then you went away,
And I became me.
Our souls are forever attached,
Yet my heart breaks every time I see your face.
I love you so,
But right now, I wish you would go.
I just do not know.
Even though you need me more,
Sometimes I wish you that you do not need me anymore.
This is wrong to say
Because I love so.
Just like the sun the needs the sky,
And the clouds need the rain.
We will forever be one,
But I really wish you would go.