My eyes no longer hold my truth.
They have sunken into a place that is full of burden.
Trying to figure out which way to go, but constantly getting lost in each direction.
Not realizing that they cannot go where they would want.
They are searching for the whole that has left my heart.
The place that has all the memories that go back so far.
My eyes are now starting to lie.
They have been telling untruths the day you became a memory.
They stop seeing the now and just looking for the past.
Hoping one day to find the piece that made not stop looking away.
Do I know you?
I honestly thought I did.
Then with a blink you flip the switch.
These light hurts worse than the dark.
I thought I could trust you, but you never trusted me.
You leave me to carry a flag that never wanted.
Now you expect me to stay.
I know the lights are on now, but the dark will forever be my home.
Now you just do not belong.
I keep trying to find the words to write, but I have nothing to say.
I just do not know where they went, but they are no longer in me.
Pen and paper are no longer my friend, and I do not know where they went.
I want to write, but what do I say?
Can I say it, or will it all be a mistake?
I just know right now I cannot write.
I cannot worry about today.
When I feel the sorrow for tomorrow.
Trying to find the peace that left me yesterday.
Not realizing that it is still with me today.
I will not cry for the seeds that will not grow tomorrow.
I will smile and know that the past will not be my present.
The sun has finally come out, and my shade is no longer needed.
It is a good day.