Poem: Fail

I tried I fail.

Tomorrow I will try and I might fail.

Then tomorrow I will try and I will fail.

Then I try once more and hope that I will not fail.

The end I fail.

Soon

Life is happening now, and you need to eb prepared to live it. Coming soon (By the end of next week.) I will have my first short film script done and ready to be shot. I just need to find time to shoot it. Soon it will happen, I just must believe it. The name of it is Not Home, that is all I will say right now. This has taken me some time to do, but I think I have the idea for what I want it to say.

Film

Today I have made a decision that will change my life forever. I have finally decided that I want to shoot a short film by the end of summer, I do not have script done yet, but that is my goal. I am writing this down so that I can have this post to go back on, and make sure I hold myself accountable for this. If I do not get it done, then it is on me. At the end will be a sample of what I am writing. Any help would be nice.

Amber and Daniel just got back home, after an anniversary for her parents. They walk into the house cut the lights on and have a conversation.

Amber

That was some kind of party wasn’t it.

Daniel

Yeah it was something I can say for sure. I do not know how your parents have been married for so long.

Amber

What does that supposed to mean?

Daniel

Nothing, I am just talking about how you know couples do not last that long anymore. They have been together over 40 years. That’s a long time.

Amber

Oh, yeah they have, but it does not seem like it. Do you want something to drink? I need to grab me some water.

Amber walks to the kitchen and gets some water

Daniel

Yeah can you bring me a cup of coffee. I have a lot of work I need to do tonight. That was decent party better than the one before

Amber (o.S)

Dan, I thought that we were going to cut out the coffee.

Daniel

Just tonight, I have to get ready for my big presentation that’s coming up. I want have too many. I promise.

Amber

Okay, sure.

Amber walks back into the living room carrying a sandwich. Daniel is now sitting at his desk flipping through papers.

Amber

Here you go baby. I know you might not eat it but just in case. Coffee will be ready in a minute.

Daniel

Okay thank you.

Amber takes a sit on the couch in the living room. Drinking her water, and she looks at the sandwich.

Amber

Wow, that was a lot. (she rubs on her stomach)

Daniel

What?

Amber

The little one is moving around a lot now. Do you want to see?

Daniel

Honey, not right now. I got to get this work done.

Amber then turns on the t.v. and it makes Daniel upset.

Daniel

Honey could you please?

Amber

Oh okay my bad. I don’t mean to make you upset. I don’t mean to be a bother.

Daniel

Now did I say that? Why do you always make things seem worse.

Amber

I mean I am just trying to have a conversation with my partner about the night we just had, but I can see that I am bothering you.

Daniel

I never said any of that. I just need to make sure that I am prepared for this presentation next week. So could you maybe watch that in the bedroom.

Amber gets up and walks back to the kitchen to check up on his coffee. While Amber is gone her phone lights up and it is her ex congratulating her on the baby.

Amber (o.S)

Hey babe, did you want anything else, besides this coffee.

Daniel

No I’m why is Jarred texting you?

Amber walks back into the living room with coffee.

Amber

What do you mean?

Daniel

He just texted you and said congratulations on the baby. How does he know?

Amber

Oh I ran into him the other day, and we got to talking about this and that you know.

Daniel

Okay, but why did you tell him about the baby. It honestly just slip.

AMBER

It was a mistake not a big deal. There is no reason to lose your cool about this.

DANIEL

Did I say I was freaking out. Did I say it

AMBER

No, but I know you Daniel. I know how you get with these things.

DANIEL

Amber why do you do that. You always assume, and you know how that freaks me out. I do not like that. Every time you assume something you assume wrong.

31

I have been putting off writing this for the last two weeks, but it is time. I am now a 31-year-old individual, who is just starting to get his life together. My birthday was January 12 and did not want to celebrate it this year with everything going on, but now I do.

My 30th year was about taking risk and doing the things that scare you. I did that when I quit my job and decided to move to city where I am alone with no friends or family. I was worried about it, but in the end, I made the right decision.

My 31st year will be about taking even bigger risk. Tomorrow is not for sure thing, and you must go after what you want. I want to make a movie and sell a sell a script that I have written. I am not sure how I am going to do that, but I know I am going to try my hardest to get it done.

Another thing that I am going to do is ask for help. I am a very prideful person, and I like to do everything on my own, but this year I will ask for help. I would love to have someone now with help editing a script and find out how to sell it.

It is a lot, but I am ready to get started. Let this new chapter begin.