Minding is running that it is almost wasting.
Time is ticking, and yet I still feel nothing.
My heart is beating fast that my chest can barely contain it.
Why must I not breathe?
I need answers to questions that I am too afraid to ask.
My life is hanging by while I am waiting for my future.
When will this disease start to heal?
Is this a lifetime ailment, or will a shot heal the pain?
I need to know, but deep down I know what it will say.
The truth is always in the eyes, but the vision is never clear as day.
I want to cry, but then my tears will lie.
One day I will be okay, until then I will just have to wait.
I know I have not posted anything in a while. That is because I have been busy writing. At the very beginning of the year, I had a goal of trying to post something everyday, but soon I realize that would be a challenge, and I was up for it. Then covid happen and to be honest life took over. I was not ready for what I was about to be dealt. When everything pretty much shut down, I must admit I did not know what to do I was lost, after a couple of weeks I took advantage of the situation and got back to reading books. I read two or three books doing that time, and they both inspired me to get more creative with my writing again so I did.
Jump to a few weeks into this lockdown I gave myself a goal to have my first screenplay written by the end of the year. I am almost done, thought it might not be good, I am happy to say that I did it, or rather I am doing it. That just goes to show that if you want something bad enough you will get tired of waiting on it to happen, you have to go out and get it. You may fall down a couple times, but you must keep trying until you reach that goal. This lockdown has not been good to me on a mental side, but it showed me ways to cope and how to deal with things that I was afraid of dealing with.
When it comes to my wealth, it has not been great, but the battle is not over and I know I can win, when it comes to my dream that is battle that I am refusing to lose and I am in it for the long haul. If there is anything I can say to people is make sure you are making the right decisions for you, so that tomorrow is better.