Poem: Fail

I tried I fail.

Tomorrow I will try and I might fail.

Then tomorrow I will try and I will fail.

Then I try once more and hope that I will not fail.

The end I fail.

Movie Review: Promising Young Woman(2020)

I recently just watch one of the best movies I have seen in a while. Promising Young Woman, a movie that just feels right to me and it is living in my mind, and I like that. I know this film just came out over a year ago, and yet it feels so timely to me. The story fits with what is happening with today society, and it tells the story perfectly in a unique way.

PYW, is a film about a girl dealing with the trauma that happen to her friend who was a promising young woman. She confronts men who try to rape women when they think she is drunk, and she deals with them.

  Carey Mulligan is great as the lead. I believe everything that she is going through and she gives off emotions as being cold, and you can just feel it from her. This is a good thing. Emerald Fennell is the writer and director behind the film. The choices she makes with her direction makes the story feel smooth and everything flows great together. The music is a good key element to the film for me. It fits the mood and the tone for me, and it comes on at the right time.

There is something about this film that seems off, but it draws you in, and it takes you into the moment that the character is in. I cannot pinpoint it, but it is there.

The one thing I think is missing is just little bit more back story. We know something happen that night, but I would have liked more details about that. I would have liked more details about the boys. We do not meet the boys until close to the end of the film. This is a type of film that makes you want to be a writer. It makes me want to write more.

I would give this film a 7 out 10.

New Light

This year is almost over and it has been one hell of a year if I must say so myself. I have done a lot and I must say that I have learn a lot about myself, some good and some bad. The one thing that stands out to me is how selfish and ungrateful I have been to the people in my life especially my mom. I have never been the best person that I can be, but with everything happening in the world and learning and experiencing that life can be over with an instance. There have been time that I have been thinking about and I am completely ashamed of the way that I acted. I think that as I am getting closer and closer to my 30’s everything is becoming more clearer to me than ever before.

This year has been the year of uncertain and also the year that you had time to sit and think about your life, well that what it has been for me at least. There have been things that has happen all over the course of my life that I feel ashamed about the way I acted with everyone that I have now. I cannot change the pass, but I can learn from it. That is what I plan on doing going forward. I know the kind of person that I was and that is not the person that I want to be ever again.

If there is one thing we all can take from 2020 is that you have to look at yourself and either be grateful for it, and if you don’t you might lose it. Life is too precious to be selfish. There are millions of people who will and have literally died to have the life that you got, and you treat it like crap. We all have to be able to look at things from everyone that just the one looking back at you. A positive note this year I was finally able to do something that I have always wanted to do, was it perfect but I went for it and I am incredibly grateful. The best thing I can say right now it to just be grateful. This is not promise.


This week has been a very eye opening week for me. I recently went to see some members of my family for the first time in over a year. I talk to them all the time, but I forgot that they are living a life also. I have been so consume about what I had going on, that I forgot about them. I used to hang around these people all the time, then I moved away and forgot about them. I did not really forget about them, I just forgot that life still goes on weather you are there or not. It is not all about me, and that some people are doing the best they can and trying to hide you from the pain because you only seem to care about yourself. I must say there is nothing wrong with putting yourself first, but you must not forgot about the people that made you who you are. I have to learn to be more gracious and open and not so close off. You never know what another person is going through. Your problems are not the only problems out there.