Poem: Writing Back

I tried to make peace of this.

But the pen could never reach the paper.

I dried the tears before they could get wet.

Then I started again, and paper never made sense.

All I know is that is I am reading every word that I cannot write.

Now I can let my tears fall away.


Today I have made a decision that will change my life forever. I have finally decided that I want to shoot a short film by the end of summer, I do not have script done yet, but that is my goal. I am writing this down so that I can have this post to go back on, and make sure I hold myself accountable for this. If I do not get it done, then it is on me. At the end will be a sample of what I am writing. Any help would be nice.

Amber and Daniel just got back home, after an anniversary for her parents. They walk into the house cut the lights on and have a conversation.


That was some kind of party wasn’t it.


Yeah it was something I can say for sure. I do not know how your parents have been married for so long.


What does that supposed to mean?


Nothing, I am just talking about how you know couples do not last that long anymore. They have been together over 40 years. That’s a long time.


Oh, yeah they have, but it does not seem like it. Do you want something to drink? I need to grab me some water.

Amber walks to the kitchen and gets some water


Yeah can you bring me a cup of coffee. I have a lot of work I need to do tonight. That was decent party better than the one before

Amber (o.S)

Dan, I thought that we were going to cut out the coffee.


Just tonight, I have to get ready for my big presentation that’s coming up. I want have too many. I promise.


Okay, sure.

Amber walks back into the living room carrying a sandwich. Daniel is now sitting at his desk flipping through papers.


Here you go baby. I know you might not eat it but just in case. Coffee will be ready in a minute.


Okay thank you.

Amber takes a sit on the couch in the living room. Drinking her water, and she looks at the sandwich.


Wow, that was a lot. (she rubs on her stomach)




The little one is moving around a lot now. Do you want to see?


Honey, not right now. I got to get this work done.

Amber then turns on the t.v. and it makes Daniel upset.


Honey could you please?


Oh okay my bad. I don’t mean to make you upset. I don’t mean to be a bother.


Now did I say that? Why do you always make things seem worse.


I mean I am just trying to have a conversation with my partner about the night we just had, but I can see that I am bothering you.


I never said any of that. I just need to make sure that I am prepared for this presentation next week. So could you maybe watch that in the bedroom.

Amber gets up and walks back to the kitchen to check up on his coffee. While Amber is gone her phone lights up and it is her ex congratulating her on the baby.

Amber (o.S)

Hey babe, did you want anything else, besides this coffee.


No I’m why is Jarred texting you?

Amber walks back into the living room with coffee.


What do you mean?


He just texted you and said congratulations on the baby. How does he know?


Oh I ran into him the other day, and we got to talking about this and that you know.


Okay, but why did you tell him about the baby. It honestly just slip.


It was a mistake not a big deal. There is no reason to lose your cool about this.


Did I say I was freaking out. Did I say it


No, but I know you Daniel. I know how you get with these things.


Amber why do you do that. You always assume, and you know how that freaks me out. I do not like that. Every time you assume something you assume wrong.

Short Story Part 3: The Night I Almost Forgot

This is part 3 of my short story. This is not the edited version with the finish product. This is just the original idea.

    Why are you keeping asking me that question? That is something that should go without saying. They were my parents I felt the same way about them as you do about your parents as anyone of us does. Almost two years ago, we lost out parents. That was one the saddest time in our lives especially mines; I was the baby. Every day I think about them. They were the most important two people in world to us. They were always there when we needed them, and I was the baby, so they treated me differently than they did my siblings.

So, when I saw what happen to them, it shook me up. Those bodies that’s an image I would never get out of my head. Not in a bad way but in a good way. I know you might not understand, but they kept trying to control my life, telling me what and who I can and cannot be around. I could not live my life like that anymore. I refused to live my life like that. Does it sadden me that they are gone? Well yes. Then I realize I am free they cannot control me anymore. So, do you want to know what happen that night? Sammie did not kill them I did. Oh, but she would have if I told her. I wanted to be the one that did it. I had to, after watching how they treated Mike and April liked there were gods, but when it came to me, I was never good enough. To you all, they seem like the perfect people. They would go to all these benefits donate money to all these causes, but I was their child, and they couldn’t give a rat’s ass about me until they thought I was hurting their image.

    So, on that night in question, I was getting high with Sammie like we normally did, but tonight was different it was my birthday, and my parents did not care they never wish me a happy birthday. When Sammie came up this brilliant idea, that she should kill my parents. At first, it sounded like a joke, but I though hey; now that sounds like a good idea why don’t I do that. So, I snuck into their room that night and waited for the perfect opportunity. Should I tell you what I did?

            After Austin’s descripted monologue about the that night, the District Attorney asked him why he did this, all Austin said was that she told me to. Austin then points over to where his siblings are sitting in the courtroom, and where Sammie is supposed to be sitting but no one is there.

“Who are you pointing to”

“At Sammie; she is sitting right there.” As he starts smiling with an unhappy gleeful smile.

“But Austin, there is no one sitting right there.”

“What do you mean there is no one there she is sitting right there.”

“Austin, Sammie is not here.”

“She is right there look.”

“Austin, Sammie’s dead don’t you remember? She died about a year ago.”

Austin then looks again, and he notice that no one is there. He is stunned, his body is shaking, and he looks over at his sister Kelly and notice that Mike is holding her while the tears just slowly roll down her face. He starts thinking what I did, where am I, as he is looking around the courtroom. The judge yells out.

“Don’t move boy.” Austin minds starts running he calls out to Kelly, but Mike walks her out of the courtroom giving Austin the look of death over what he did. Austin then starts to yell out for Sammie, but she is not around.

“Where is Sammie she was here a few minutes ago where is she?”

“Austin, Sammie’s not here.”

“Yes, she is, we came here together where is she?”

“Austin, there is no way she can be here. She is dead don’t you remember?”


“Sammie died of an overdose; don’t you remember it was a year ago.”

Austin is stunned and confused he cannot believe what he is hearing, then he starts to remember what happen, and the shock and tears roll down his face. Not over the fact that his parents are dead, but that he is the one that killed Sammie. Sammie was the only person that he ever cared for so how this could happen.

Then he remembers that night they both had been drinking, after Austin parents told him that Sammie was no longer allowed at their house. He went over to Sammie house to pick her up, and they went to their usually spot and got drunk. Austin blocked this memory out; he did not want to believe that his friend was gone.

Now he realizes that his parents were trying to help him, but he could not see it. For the first time he starts to cry for his parents, they did love him. It just wasn’t the way in which he wanted them to.  He then remembers back to sit at the kitchen table and his parents warn him that one day Sammie was going to change his life, he just did not expect this.