A lot going on

It has been a few days since I have written anything. I needed a break from writing. I was getting sick of forcing myself to write something that I did not know what it means. I am afraid to admit that I no longer know what to say.

The last couple of years I could feel the words of almost anything come out so easy. Then the last couple of months I just did not know what I wanted to say, or if I should say something at all. There has been a lot of outside factors I think played a big part into what I was going through. I have been trying to fight through it, but it has not been a well thought out idea.

Life is not easy, and I do not like to ask for help. I do not like to be a burden on anybody, so I put all the pressure on myself to do it. I do not leave my house I just go to work come home, and think and wonder what am I doing. Is this stupid or worth my time. I have so much that I want to do, but I just can never seem to do it.

Now I think I am ready to write. Pressure has been laying on my side, for years and I have realize that time is running out. There is no more waiting I must go. I wrote a movie, and now I need to edit it. I would love to have help, but I must do it.