It has been a little over a month since I have started my new fitness journey, and I must say I think it is going well. There has been a lot of ups and downs the last couple of weeks, but I am starting to feel more comfortable with my body. This has been the struggle that I have been facing the last couple of years.

This is something that I have been wanting to do for so long, but it has not been easy. There has been time that I hated the way I look, and I wanted to do something about it. I did something about it. This journey started about 10 years ago, and it one that I think I will be on for the rest of my life. It is a process that I know what I need to do but am I willing to do it. This time I am.

When I turn 30, I think something clicked for me that made me start to see myself in way that was not filled with hate but accepting the person that I am and learning to love that person. This year I have done only that figuring out ways to love me for me and not let anything negative stick with me. This has not been easy, and each I treat as new day to be love.

This time with me having a coach I feel like I can achieve the goals that I have been searching for my whole life. I must say one thing that has happen with this is that I am not writing or reading at all anymore like I would want to. That is what my goal is for this week is to write. I just want to just do everything I love and be happy. That is my goal, and I coming to do just that.

Poem: Storm Break

The storm is settling on the place it knows well.

The place that is never whole for it keeps getting broken.

Winds are high and blowing everything in its direction.

Everything hitting, but nothing is sticking.

Looking through the hurdles of clouds and one ray of light appears.

It as if the gates have open.

The storm is leaving the place and it is becoming whole again.

This time you hope that it will not break.

Time passes on, and the place only grow stronger and stronger.

Could it be that this is the glue that will keep it together?

That one ray of light that only you could see if now guiding you.

Another storm is now on the horizon, and it settles in the place it knows.

This time however your heart decided that it will not break.

The storm tries with all its might to tear you apart.

This time it did not.