I never thought this day would come
That I would want and yearn for this place.
I used to think that I was better than this place.
I hated the trees that surrounded me.
That gave me air to breath in your heartful fate.
The rain that would come and stay.
The cold of it make you hate it.
Now When it rains you want the cold that it brings.
I realize that I am this place
That I did not need this place.
Why am I here?
There is nothing going on but lost and hurt.
And I did not want to feel that anymore this was not my desire this was my home.
The day I left I made myself a solidum vowel.
That I would never return.
Now I look out the window and wait
I hope for the rain
I hope for the cold
I hope for the faces of people that are gone.
The storm that passed
That made me who I am.
Now All I think about is my home.
It has been a while since I posted anything on here, for good reason. I needed a break from writing and thinking really. My mind was running all over the place and I had a lot of stuff happening that was making me feel worthless if I am honest. I had just turned 30, and I never dream that this is what I would be doing at this age. That is just life. I needed to sit back and try to figure out how to move forward and not be stuck in the place and regretting what I am doing now. I had to learn to live with my current reality, even though it is not the reality I want. This is the one that I got to learn to do still.
A positive thing that came out of the little writing break, was I need to ask myself what I wanted to do this the year of my life and how I will be able to accomplish that. I want to write a movie, I did that last year just to see if I can, and I was able to do that. Was it perfect? No, but I wrote one, and I am proud of myself for that. This year I would like to do the same thing, but better and try to figure out how to get it made. I also would love to work for someone who writes so that I can learn. It seems like a lot, but who know life is short you must think big.
With me saying that I will leave you with this no dream is too small or too high that you can not accomplish it. Granted it might take some time, but you can do it. The worst anybody can say is no, and it up to you how you hear that no. Just keep pushing forward, you never know what might happen.
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