Everything I want but not everything I want

Recently I was presented with a new opportunity for something that I have been wanting for so long, and just like last time I am terrified to take it. This time though I actually have the door open, and all I have to do is walk through the door, but that for some reason is hard to do. This happens to me almost every time, but this time I am farther along then I normally am. I honestly do not know why I am like this, it is as if I do not believe in myself as I should.

As I was stating in my last post that I started writing my first screenplay, but I have not written anything for it in the last two weeks. Life has been going yet, I am doubting weather or not that I actually can do. I think it is because I have gotten so used to rejection that I do not know how to take acceptance.

I really do not know what to do, but hopefully I will figure it out soon.


Long time

Hello, so I have not been writing for a while now, I have been trying to figure out what I had to say and how to say it. I must be honest I still do not know what to say or write, but I know that I need to if I want to be better than I was yesterday. The one thing that I have started doing is writing my first screenplay. I have not written anything for the last week or so, but I am trying to figure out how and what to say when I am writing every single scene. Something that I want to have accomplish by the end of summer is a first draft.

I do know that I have this to say, if you are afraid to do something you need to try it at least once. The reason I am saying this is because I am afraid to do a lot of things recently, for obvious reason, but I still want to try them. In life, you have to be willing to step out and try things. I must say the world is pretty much in a tail spin right now, and I am not sure where everything is going, or how it will end.

That is why I have finally decided to step and do something that I have always wanted to do. I have no clue what I am doing, but one thing I have learn so far is that I love it, and I would not trade that feeling for anything in the world, it is fun. Hopefully soon I will get back to doing these. Great week.


There has been a lot going on in the world now, and I honestly I do not know what to say. I have seen a lot in my 29 years on the earth, some good and some bad. I know people expect me act and say things a certain way because I am black, but to be honest I cannot find the words to say anything. What I have decided to do was to take action, and learn ways in which I can make things better.

I grew up with my mother working for the county jail, and I know how hard she works, but I also know how much harder she has to work because she is black. I also know how hard it is for African Americans with the police. I can honestly say just because he was black. My cousin went missing almost 15 years ago, and till this day we have no clue what happen to him. That’s Alabama

I really do not know what to say except that we need to make a change soon