Back to life as if nothing has change
Yet as I look around only dust and dirt remain
From the people that used to hang around the corner store
To the old man begging for change down the way.
You rush to check on your love ones
Then you remember that they are not there
The children are not running around outside
And the oil is no longer dripping from your uncle’s car
The shelter you hid in is suddenly gone
But there is a light that is shining bright over there
You see a familiar face that has been gone for years
When you touch her face it makes you feel real?
As soon as you turn your head, she is gone with the dust
Like the man down the street or the neighbor in the front yard
As you look around trying to see if this is real
You wake up and weep for things that has disappeared.
I just felt as if I needed to write something so I wrote this. I am still figuring it out.
How many people have been through a storm? I am not talking about bad weather type of storm. I am talking about a life storm. I have been through a lot of storms in my life, but I would not necessary call them storms. I would call them turning points. The reason I would call them that is because when you go through a storm at the end of it is lesson that you would learn.
I would say one of the biggest storm I faced was in 2017. I will not go into detail about the situation, but it was something that I never though that I would experience. It seem as if every where I turn something unexpected would happen, and I did not know how to handle it, or if I wanted it to be handle. The situation was not dire, but it showed me that it was not all bad, and how to get through certain situations.
I am saying all this because one, there is storm in my area now, and that I could not think of anything to write. You just have to remember that after the storm is over, you will get to know the true meaning of the storm, and what it was meant to show you. It may not be the lesson that you want, but the turning point is the part that will leave you with an open opportunity that you might not understand.
How do you get over missing something that you never knew that you missed. The last couple of days, weeks, months, and years you will learn that it is not easy being alone. I really don’t know what to say right now, I just feel like I need to say something. I have a feeling that things are about to get worse, and I don’t know how to feel or adjust. That is something that a lot of people are feeling right now, but you have to learn how to get over it and move differently.
I don’t know what to really say or write now, but it is time to do everything that you want to do, and you have no reason not to. Your time is now and the door is open it is up to you to walk in or let it close. Make sure you chose wisely.
How long should it take a person to figure something out? The question I am trying to ask is how long should it take a person to figure out life. That is a question that really can’t be answered. It’s a great question to ask, but to be honest it is something that is quite hard to narrow down. This seems like an odd time to be asking this question with everything going on, but right before all of this happen I thought I had everything figured out, turns out now I’m not sure.
When we all were younger we dreamed of being an adult, but little did we know there was a lot more work for us ahead. I was in college for almost 10 years and I have two bachelors degrees to show for it, but still I am not sure have it figured out what I want, or need in my life to be successful. That is not to say just because I graduated from college that I should have my life figured out by now, but as you get older things change for you.
I used to think that I maybe become a doctor one day, but I grew out of that. I also thought that I would be involved with music because of my background ( I played trumpet in my high school band.) Then I thought maybe I would be lawyer, but I wasn’t sure I could handle that. That was something that always stood next to me, but I was not ready, and I let other people around me influence me. I chose to study political science. I am not saying that I am about to go to law school or anything; all I am saying it takes time to figure things out, and sometimes life shows you other wise.
The thing what I am trying to get across is that just because you think you have your life figure out, something maybe come along and change your whole perspective, it could be for the good or the bad it just depends on how you see it not how anyone else would see it. Take it day by day and in the end, you will know what is the right thing for you. It’s okay to not have it figured out yet most people are still searching.
I wrote this on my phone in one take. If something is wrong I’m sorry.