Misconception

Poem: Pause

I’m screaming out.

I keep trying to be better, but I just does not work.

The work does not match my paper.

The streams of the river are no longer peaceful.

My heart is hitting so hard, yet I still do not know what it hit.

Th tears are still there just not as wet.

My soul is draining the light without my eyes.

I keep moving forward, but I think I need to pause.

I do not know where I want to go.

What happened to my words.

They used to flow like the midnight waves.

Now they are few and far in between.

I just have nothing to say.

Nothing seems to make sense.

I just do not know what to say.

I took a break, but to find the right way.

Now I realize I still have nothing to say.

Has there been joy, yes.

But sorrow also lives on that same shelf.

I just never can seem to reach it, and I do not want to try.

Why do you hurt me?

Have I been cruel?

Did I do something that you don’t understand?

I tried to be everything, but that has cost me everything.

I lose it all when it come to you.

Yet I always come back for more.

That is the way love goes.

Many people wonder why I can’t shed any tears.

I have cried for so long that my water has run dry.

I tried for years to hold back, but that simply would not work.

Every time there is a new dagger that goes to my heart.

It always come from the person that made it grow.

Now that person has slowly turn into a system that you can never say no to.

Instead, you hold it all in and run away.

You go and try to grow, but everyday they cut you down, until there is nothing more to say.

There is nothing more to do.

The pain is so strong that you never know how it let them go.

The question lies do you want them to.